Shy Aussie Gay

My Life

2009-01-07T19:38:00.002+09:00

Well life sucks since last time i wrote anything here. I fucked up things with Daniel coz im a loser. I've fallen for every guy that doesnt like me since then and the guy i like now is hated by all my friends.

Was seeing the hottest guy a few weeks ago. His name is Billy from the uk. He's 25 and looks like he's 18 which he hates when ppl bring up lol. Well we were seeing each other for about 2 weeks and everything was cool and it was as if we were in a relationship. we saw each other everyday, everyone thought we were going out but supposedly we weren't and now he's gone to start fucking a 42 year old sugar daddy. Man i suck.

Harri came to visit me in october. Was sooo good seeing him again but i was too scared to do anything because he has a boyfriend again now and i didnt wanna do what i did last time :( he even said when he went back to melb that he was surprised i didnt do anything and that he wouldnt have stopped me lol.

I went blonde. omg never thought id do it but i look hot hahaha. well better when my regrowth comes out anyway :P

meh dunno why im bothering with this shit again just needed to vent i guess.

cya

Famous Ellz

2008-05-18T14:51:00.002+08:00

im staying at Ellz's place tonight. Ellz is boy i met about 4 years ago off faceparty i guess. lostcontact with him until january of this year and found out he was in perth for 6 months at the same time i was. so stupid.
anyway, i have one more night in brissy so i thought i'd see ellz who ive said i would see that many times but never came lol.
so he picked me up at the train station with some friends of his. was wierd i never know what to say to ppl, especially when they in front of their friends so has been pretty awkward lol. we've chatted abit about ppl he knew in perth and what we been up to, but he's hungover from last night so i dont think this will be a very fun stay lol.
oh well home tomorrow. he might take me shopping tomorrow tho which well help my wardrobe lol :p

best day ever :D

2008-05-18T07:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the best day ever. was supposed to have brekkie with daniel at 9 but he was late lol. by about and hour and a half lol but was all good. went to see what happens in vegas afterwards and was great. kept trying to hold his hand but he thought ppl could see us lol. he did say i was trying to get him hard which would have been fun. yes daniel, it would have been fun :p i know u still read this :p
after the movie we went and walked around a botanical garden and then went to my motel room to watch movies and snuggle hehe. was the best time ever. wish i didnt have to leave :( i miss him already. oh well i have to pack my bags now to go back to brissy for a night.
have a good one everyone

P.S. I Love You Daniel mwa mwa xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Bloody Grandma

2008-05-15T10:24:00.002+08:00

i forgot to mention that my grandma blabbed to my mum about lending me money :s was not a fun night last night, mum trying to find out why i needed the money, me convincing mum that it wasnt any of her business and that she should trust me coz ive never asked for money before so if im asking for it now i must really need it. was a long talk but i got through lol :p
ok now im really off :p

12 hours till i fly

2008-05-15T10:16:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO only 12 hours to go till im on the plane to brissie :D and ill say 48 hours until i see daniel coz not sure if he'll come see me on friday arvo or not lol :p
ok im gonna be boring today and thats all i can be bothered to write lol.

i'll be back lol :p

Toowoomba

2008-05-13T13:07:00.003+08:00

well boys im in darwin now and i just bought a ticket to toowoomba to see daniel WOOHOO. i stopped talking about daniel on this coz for some silly reason i showed him this blog and now im sure he's gonna keep checking it. arent u daniel :P i know u.
anyway. grandma gave mes ome money she owed me so im all set to continue my holiday hehe. man i love my grandma. bet she wouldnt have given me the money if i told her it was to see a boy :p. she's very religious.
anyway, im off to go for another sailing trip with 2 cartons of piss hehe. oh and my fucking HOT friend conor. yum yum hehe

ill repost soon ;)

hate brad

2008-05-10T20:38:00.002+08:00

Brad is a fucking arse. how hard is it to pick up a fucking phone and call. my whole fucking holiday is ruined because of that fuck. i had to buy my own ticket to darwin today and because its last minute cost $549 one way. ONE WAY! and somehow i gotta get back.
fuck i dunno what to do im so angry.
meh im off cya guys

NAKED BENNERS :D

2008-05-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

hehe got you all excited didnt i :p went gyming with benners on wednesday and this is the 4th time ive been with him but yesterday was the first time he actually took his pants off hehe. omg i was in heaven. his singlet was a lil long but i saw his bulge through his undies for a second hehe. had to sit down for a sec. pretended to tie my shoe laces.
im thinking of coming out to him to see if he is curious and says anything, but i dont wanna lose him as a friend either.
oh well got benners bulge in mind so im off to bed hehe ;)

ramble

2008-05-08T21:18:00.003+08:00

man why does daniel make me feel this way. i get so excited when i get a message from him and he sends me the sweetest messages. but today i was talking to him on msn and we were talking about when i go visit him next week and he starts saying he might not be able to see me and if he does he's bringing his best friend lachlan even tho we said a few days ago we were just gonna do some alone time :(
i think he likes me. some of the txts he send must prove it but then he talks about not caring about anything. man im rambling again. i should change this blog name to ramblings of a loser lol

anyway im going to bed. gonna try and not think of loving daniel until i see him but its gonna be so hard

dunno wat to do

2008-05-07T20:54:00.002+08:00

got a txt from chris yesterday. wanted to meet up with me again on saturday when he flies back in. told him i couldnt because thats the day i fly out for darwin and brissie but i dunno if he believed me :S he's being really sweet and all but i dont want to make anything to serious of it because of daniel.

Got a txt from daniel last night too hehe. it was just after i finished helping. so i stopped my car in some random street because he was about to go to bed and wanted me to call him quickly. well quickly turned into half an hour hehe and lets just say that after 20 mins our conversation got a lil......exciting hehe. ended up having a wank in the middle of some street, untill i had to stop coz a couple walking there dog appeared out of nowhere lol. oh well was fun anyway hehe.

but yeah im really falling for daniel and ive never even met him :s can you love someone uve never met? what about someone uve only known for 2 weeks? i really think i do, and i kinda wanna say it but i dont wanna scare him off.

oh well, thinking of last nights convo has got me hard again lol. time for me time :p
night night

cute flight attendant

2008-05-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

omg last night i got a call from my friend brad who is a flight attendant for virgin. he's getting me cheap flights to go see daniel hehe.
anyway he called me to come have a drink with him coz i ditched him last time he came to perth. so being a good friend (i really want that cheap flight lol) i went.
it started off so boring until this kinda cute guy came and joined us. his name is chris and he is kinda cute but brad spent all night trying to hook us up. on a normal day i woulda been fuck yeah coz im not really that experienced *blushes* but i got the cutest message from daniel the night before and im really into him. i exchanged numbers with chris and i did kiss him which was really nice, except the smoke taste but i ignored that. i dunno. brad was really upset that i didnt stay the night with them, well with chris. i feel like i fucked up. meh too late now

A bit about me

2008-05-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

hey all. thought id give these blog things ago so here we go. in the last few months ive been coming out to some of my friends. i was in a straight relationship and it wasnt working coz i wasnt attracted to her but i didnt know how to end it. but i did and i feel sooooooooo good hehe. i can now be myself :)

at the moment theres 3 main guys i want hehe. Harri is my first main love. I've known him since i was 15 but didnt realise my feelings for him till i was 18 and by then i guess it was too late. he says he only loves me as a friend but id leave everything for him if he ever said he was in love with me hehe.

Now theres a boi in toowoomba (Daniel) who is soooooo cute and i really really like him, but he lives in toowoomba :( but i am going there in 2 weeks to go see him hehe.

And Benners hehe. He started working at the same place as me a month and a bit ago and omg he's hot. I've been like flirting with him since he started and he hasnt even noticed. why is it so easy to flirt with straight guys lol. tho i think he might be a lil curious coz he asks me to do like everything with him. we joined the gym together, he wanted me to help him pick out a phone. meh i dunno.

oh well thats me for this entry hehe. thanks for reading :D